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My brain can’t handle this week

The trying to stay positive front is just that… a front. A fake smile to cover the chaos that is whooshing around in back inside my head. Even under the best CURRENT circumstances this week as memory hits hard for our family and every year, more crap that my brain just doesn’t seem to want…… Continue reading My brain can’t handle this week

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There was a hole down there…

I’m about as good at typing on my phone as Mr. Mango is on a real keyboard, so this little update is slightly overdue. It’s not that I haven’t been able to meagerly communicate otherwise, but sitting upright and straight is probably the least comfortable position possible, and there’s no way I can get my…… Continue reading There was a hole down there…

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I made it through the MIL invasion!

Treading water through a massive lake of depression wasn’t bad enough, dawn was rising and a shore line was in sight. Of course as soon as the grips of despair seem to loosen that is when anxiety took it’s hold and pulled me under. Not just the daily strain of general anxiety gnawing away in the…… Continue reading I made it through the MIL invasion!

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How to get rid of any illness!

  I’m still sometimes amazed at how awkward me being sick can make other people. Usually resulting in them either slowly cutting themselves out of my life and once in a while popping up on Facebook to wish another Happy Birthday or noncommittal ‘lets get together sometime’ OR they ‘try to help.’ By this I mean…… Continue reading How to get rid of any illness!

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Lupus (and everything else) Limbo

It’s kind of odd, I initially started this blog over a year ago now to document the more medical/ physical side of my journey in hope that it would help me come to grips with accepting life with a (multiple..) new chronic conditions and worsening symptoms while also juggling motherhood, partnership, mental illness and well……… Continue reading Lupus (and everything else) Limbo

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I’m not welcome in my head…

Being stuck inside my head has never really been a welcoming idea, but hey it’s home right? Lately though it hasn’t just been a dark and dreary maze of horrors, it feels more like a plain small padded room… full of  invisible booby traps. Maybe to some people the first option sounds worse… to me…… Continue reading I’m not welcome in my head…

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Quick Smile!…Memories and crap…

I sometimes wonder if 10 years from now I’ll be looking back at all the photos, clippings, movie passes, artwork etc. from this point in time and think “wow we had so much fun, what a happy young family we are” or if I’ll remember how fucking rotten it’s been underneath all the smiles and…… Continue reading Quick Smile!…Memories and crap…